Books I read in 2018, ranked from best to worst

The last two years I put together a list of books I read, ranked from the ones I enjoyed the most to those I enjoyed the least. In keeping up with the tradition, here’s my list for this year.

This year, my goal was to read a book a week. I’d read for 30 – 60 minutes each night before going to sleep, and for part of the year, I used my lunch break to read (mostly because I was so far behind on my reading goal). I made my reading goal with one day to spare!

Number of books read:

Graph showing number of books I read in the last 5 years: 2018, 52 books; 2017, 42 books; 2016, 45 books; 2015, 22 books; 2014, 9 books

Number of pages read:

Graph showing number of pages I read in the last 5 years: 2018, 16278 pages; 2017, 13902 pages; 2016, 15930 pages; 2015, 6622 pages; 2014, 2579 pages

As I’ve done before, I’ve broken down the list into different categories based on how I enjoyed the stories:

  • Numbers 1 – 11 are joining my list of favourites
  • Numbers 12 – 19 were very good, and I would happily read them again
  • Numbers 20 – 32 were good. I probably won’t re-read them, but I may recommend them to someone else
  • Numbers 33 – 43 were not for me, though I might recommend them to others in very specific circumstances
  • Numbers 44 – 52 were definitely not for me, and I’d probably not recommend them to anyone

Best Reads of 2018

  1. The Secret History of Twin Peaks by Mark Frost
  2. The Fifth Season (Broken Earth #1) by N.K. Jemisin
  3. The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul (Dirk Gently, #2) by Douglas Adams (re-read)
  4. Salt Fish Girl by Larissa Lai
  5. Moon of the Crusted Snow by Waubgeshig Rice
  6. Down Among the Sticks and Bones (Wayward Children, #2) by Seanan McGuire
  7. When Fox is a Thousand by Larissa Lai
  8. Seven Fallen Feathers: Racism, Death, and Hard Truths in a Northern City by Tanya Talaga
  9. Ring (Ring, #1) by Kōji Suzuki
  10. Every Anxious Wave by Mo Daviau
  11. The Night Circus by Erin Morgenstern
  12. Where the Dead Sit Talking by Brandon Hobson
  13. Beneath the Sugar Sky (Wayward Children, #3) by Seanan McGuire
  14. Loop (Ring, #3) by Kōji Suzuki
  15. Viscera by Gabrielle Squailia
  16. If Nobody Speaks of Remarkable Things by Jon McGregor
  17. Little Fish by Casey Plett
  18. The Killing Moon (Dreamblood, #1) by N.K. Jemisin
  19. On Such a Full Sea by Chang-rae Lee
  20. Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami
  21. Spiral (Ring, #2) by Kōji Suzuki
  22. We Are Okay by Nina LaCour
  23. The Witch’s Boy by Kelly Barnhill
  24. The Snow Child by Eowyn Ivey
  25. Agents of Dreamland by Caitlín R. Kiernan
  26. Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World by Haruki Murakami
  27. A Taste of Honey by Kai Ashante Wilson
  28. The Crossover by Kwame Alexander
  29. J by Howard Jacobson
  30. Hot Lead, Cold Iron (Mick Oberon, #1) by Ari Marmell
  31. The Shoe on the Roof by Will Ferguson
  32. Sabriel (Abhorsen, #1) by Garth Nix
  33. Franny and Zooey by J.D. Salinger
  34. Sabbathday River by Jean Hanff Korelitz
  35. 100 Cupboards (100 Cupboards, #1) by N.D. Wilson
  36. Dear Martin by Nic Stone
  37. The Beast Is an Animal by Peternelle van Arsdale
  38. Sex for One: The Joy of Selfloving by Betty Dodson
  39. Dark Orbit by Carolyn Ives Gilman
  40. Look Who’s Morphing by Tom Cho
  41. Night Watch (Night Watch, #1) by Sergei Lukyanenko
  42. When Dimple Met Rishi by Sandhya Menon
  43. The Robe of Skulls: The First Tale from the Five Kingdoms by Vivian French
  44. Wonder by R.J. Palacio
  45. Before I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp
  46. The Boat Rocker by Ha Jin
  47. The Many Deaths of Tom Thomson: Separating Fact from Fiction by Gregory Klages
  48. Attached: The New Science of Adult Attachment and How It Can Help You find and Keep love by Amir Levine
  49. Daughter of Hounds by Caitlín R. Kiernan
  50. Too Like the Lightning (Terra Ignota, #1) by Ada Palmer
  51. Dark Matter by Blake Crouch
  52. Kraken by China Miéville

For 2019, my reading goal is to again read 52 books. But this time around, I’ll be more picky about what I read/finish. There were so many books I read this year that I struggled to get through, which is part of what made my progress slow. No more of that this year. If I’m not enjoying a book within the first 100 or so pages, I will put it down.

So, what DOES all this tweeting really mean? Results from ethnographic work on Twitter use and advanced cancer

If you missed the news, yesterday I successfully defended my thesis.

I owe thanks to a million different people, but I specifically want to acknowledge four people who made this project what it has become. First and foremost, Alicia Merchant who’s Twitter use inspired my whole thesis. I hope this research honours your legacy. Colleen Young,  Michelle Hamilton-Page, and Fiona Webster: I am so grateful for your mentorship and advice. I feel so proud of this work and it is in no small part because of what I’ve learned from you.

In the next few weeks I’ll be working on a manuscript (or two or three) to formally publish my work. In the meantime, below is a plain language overview of my thesis and some of what I found. You can also read a 2-page summary of my research. [PDF, opens in new window], or delve into all 168 pages of my full thesis manuscript [PDF, opens in new window].

“I’m still here”: an Ethnographic Exploration of Public Twitter Use among People Living with Advanced Cancer

A brief summary

Research question: Why do people living with advanced cancer use Twitter publicly?

To answer this question, I looked at public tweets shared by people living with advanced cancer to understand how they used Twitter, and I interviewed people living with advanced cancer to find out what they thought about their public Twitter use.

Why this is important: Most of the research I’ve read on health-related Twitter use has focused on how Twitter helps patients find peer support and health information. But when you can find both these things through more private and more reliable means (such as through peer support groups, from your medical team, from health librarians, etc.), I didn’t think these goals alone were enough to explain Twitter use. So what else brings patients to use Twitter?

Findings: After interviewing 10 participants and studying more than 9,000 tweets from 8 Twitter users, I came up with 6 themes that helped me to better understand how and why people with advanced cancer use Twitter.

  1. Constructing Identity through ‘Textual Selfie’: Tweeting was sometimes used to make sense of thoughts or feelings by creating  ‘textual selfies’ (informal snapshots of a moment in time) which helped them understand themselves better. Twitter felt like a place where it was OK to share as many or few tweets as one wanted, whenever the mood struck, and even if thoughts were only partially formed.
  2. Resisting Social Death: In sociology, ‘social death’ is a term used to describe when  someone is not able to participate fully in ‘normal’ life (for example, because someone is sick and unable to do regular daily activities). Twitter helped people with advanced cancer stay connected to regular life because they could decide when to focus on their cancer or when to share other parts of their lives, like their hobbies, interests, and skills. Twitter also was an easy way to connect to ‘regular’ life, especially when cancer treatments or side effects prevented them from living a regular life.
  3. Accounting for Time: Twitter use made people with advanced cancer very aware of time and prompted them to be more mindful of how they spent it. Their feelings about time seemed to correspond to how they felt about their Twitter use, for example, people who were anxious about having limited time felt Twitter could be a waste of time, while others who were grateful for each day used Twitter to celebrate the time they had left. But no matter how they felt about the passing of time, Twitter was a way for them to look back at the past.
  4. Finding Freedom in Obscurity: Because tweets felt less visible than other social media posts (like Facebook), people with advanced cancer felt they could be more authentic on Twitter than in other social spaces. When they felt that other people weren’t paying very close attention to their tweets, they felt like they could be more free with their ideas. But when they felt others were paying more attention (for example, because they became more famous or because people close to them started following them), they were more careful about what they posted and sometimes censored themselves.
  5. Creating a Living Legacy: Public use of Twitter was often seen as a way to show the world what it is really like to live with advanced cancer with the intention of helping out other people, including strangers. This could mean openly sharing their knowledge about cancer, providing comfort to other patients, or being a positivity role model for other patients and their loved ones.
  6. Fighting for What’s Right: Anti-social tactics were sometimes used on Twitter as a way to correct ‘bad’ information about cancer and its experience. Spamming was used in an effort to increase the visibility of advocacy messages. Calling out was used to draw unwanted attention to users with problematic behaviours as a means of publicly shaming them until they change their ways. Trolling was used to disrupt conversations (such as tweet chats or popular hashtag memes) to make sure readers are getting the ‘right’ information about cancer.

What do these Findings mean: Most of the research on Twitter use among patients has focused on what people tweet about without looking at why they tweet. When focusing on people with advanced cancer, tweeting can be a way to say: “I’m still here”. I came to this thought after seeing a Twitter users tweet a version of this statement several times within a few months.

The phrase “I’m still here” can be interpreted to mean a few different things:

  • “I’m still here”, as in letting other people know you are still present when they can’t see you otherwise. As a general example, this can be done when using text-based technology to talk with other people.
  • It can be a way of re-stating that you are still a person with the same hobbies, interests, and values as you had before your cancer diagnosis.
  • It can also be a way of bringing hope to other cancer patients, as in “I am still living despite the diagnosis I was given. Don’t let the statistics or prognosis dictate your life”
  • It can also inspire those without cancer, as in “I am still living my best life, even when facing this awful diagnosis. If I can face cancer, you can get through whatever you’re facing too”

It’s official! I finished grad school!

Today I am officially done grad school. After my defense my thesis was accepted as is – a rare honour for my program – and all i have left to do is submit the paperwork and then graduate in November! It’s been a looooong process, but I am so proud of the work I did. I’ll tell you all more about it in the upcoming days, but today I am basking in the glory of reaching the finish line.

Top 10 works that shaped my thesis research

Tomorrow morning I will be defending my master’s thesis. As I’ve been preparing for this final milestone, I’ve been reflecting on how I got to this point and all the people who’ve influenced my progress. Special thanks to the phenomenal scientists whose works got me here.

Doing a master’s degree involves a heck-load of reading. I’ve cited over 150 references in my thesis manuscript and easily read twice as many more books/chapters/articles that I didn’t cite.

But there were 10 works in particular that really shaped my research and I wanted to publicly thank each of these authors for providing me with such thought-provoking pieces. Some were helpful for formulating my research topic, others guided me through the research process, and others still helped me understand the context of my study.

Reading each of these pieces served as pivotal moments in my research by opening me up to new ideas. I highly recommend giving them a read (and contact me if you need help finding a copy)!

  1. Murthy D (2012). Towards a sociological understanding of social media: Theorizing Twitter. Sociology, 46(6), 1059-1073.
  2. Frank AW (1998). Just listening: Narrative and deep illness. Families, Systems, & Health, 16(3), 197-212.
  3. Boellstorff T, Nardi B, Pearce C, Taylor TL (2012). Ethnography and Virtual Worlds: A Handbook of Method. Princeton University Press.
  4. Scotland J (2012). Exploring the philosophical underpinnings of research: Relating ontology and epistemology to the methodology and methods of the scientific, interpretive, and critical research paradigms. English Language Teaching, 5(9), 9.
  5. boyd d (2010). Social Network Sites as Networked Publics: Affordances, Dynamics, and Implications. In Papacharissi Z (Ed.), Networked Self: Identity, Community, and Culture on Social Network Sites. Routledge.
  6. Nissim R, Rennie D, Fleming S, Hales S, Gagliese L, Rodin G (2012). Goals set in the land of the living/dying: a longitudinal study of patients living with advanced cancer. Death studies, 36(4), 360-390.
  7. Thompson K (2007). Liminality as a descriptor for the cancer experience. Illness, Crisis & Loss, 15(4), 333-351.
  8. Hardin M (2014). Moving beyond description: Putting Twitter in (theoretical) context. Communication & Sport, 2(2), 113-116.
  9. Postill J, Pink S (2012). Social media ethnography: The digital researcher in a messy web. Media International Australia, 145(1), 123-134.
  10. Prior L (2012). Documents in Health Research. In The SAGE Handbook of Qualitative Methods in Health Research. London: SAGE Publications Ltd.

Books I read in 2017, ranked from best to worst

Last year I posted Books I read in 2016, ranked from best to worst, so here’s my list for this year.

I realized that more than half of the books I read in 2016 were written by white men, and thus all the recommendations I got from Goodreads were for books also written by white men. My goal for this year was to read at least 26 books written by People of Colour or trans/non-binary people, and I believe I have exceeded that goal (though there are still a few books on the list below written by cis white people).

Book count:

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Page count:

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As with last year’s post, I’ve broken down the list into different categories based on how I enjoyed the stories:

  • Numbers 1 – 10 are joining my list of favourites
  • Numbers 11 – 18 were very good, and I would happily read them again
  • Numbers 19 – 31 were good, but not my taste. I would not choose to read them again, though I may recommend them to someone else.
  • Numbers 32 – 38 were not so good, would avoid re-reading and would only recommend to others in very specific circumstances
  • Numbers 39 – 40 were terrible and I would not recommend to anyone

Best Reads of 2017

  1. The Drowning Girl by Caitlín R. Kiernan
  2. The Hate U Give by Angie Thomas
  3. Every Heart a Doorway (Wayward Children, #1) by Seanan McGuire
  4. Small Beauty by Jai Qing Wilson-Yang
  5. The Summer We Got Free by Mia McKenzie
  6. Bow Grip by Ivan Coyote
  7. Version Control by Dexter Palmer
  8. The Lamb Will Slaughter the Lion by Margaret Killjoy
  9. Rise: A Newsflesh Collection by Mira Grant
  10. After Dark by Haruki Murakami
  11. Midnight Robber by Nalo Hopkinson
  12. The Mothers by Brit Bennett
  13. Birdie by Tracey Lindberg
  14. A Tale for the Time Being by Ruth Ozeki
  15. A Safe Girl to Love by Casey Plett
  16. Let the Right One In by John Ajvide Lindqvist
  17. Feed (Newsflesh Trilogy, #1) by Mira Grant
  18. Shadows Cast By Stars by Catherine Knutsson
  19. Allegedly by Tiffany D. Jackson
  20. Hadriana in All My Dreams by René Depestre
  21. American Street by Ibi Zoboi
  22. Blackout (Newsflesh Trilogy, #3) by Mira Grant
  23. He Mele A Hilo by Ryka Aoki
  24. Holding Still For As Long As Possible by Zoe Whittall
  25. Blood Oranges by Kathleen Tierney
  26. The Shadow Speaker by Nnedi Okorafor
  27. The Dream of Perpetual Motion by Dexter Palmer
  28. A Wish After Midnight by Zetta Elliott
  29. Behold the Dreamers by Imbolo Mbue
  30. If I Was Your Girl by Meredith Russo
  31. Killer of Enemies (Killer of Enemies, #1) by Joseph Bruchac
  32. Deadline (Newsflesh Trilogy, #2) by Mira Grant
  33. One Day We’ll All Be Dead and None of This Will Matter by Scaachi Koul
  34. The Illegal by Lawrence Hill
  35. Discount Armageddon (InCryptid, #1) by Seanan McGuire
  36. Annabelle by Kathleen Winter
  37. Fellside by M.R. Carey
  38. The First Bad Man by Miranda July
  39. Faust Among Equals by Tom Holt
  40. Adam by Ariel Schrag

Got any recommendations for my 2018 list? Leave a comment!